The word 'Consequences' played a critical part in the first few months of our divorce. Again and Again, in email and conversation Patricia would point out that, with the divorce, I could no longer threaten her with consequences.

   How complete and utterly true, but what Patricia did not understand was the importance of consequences to behavior, hers, mine, the children, and everyone else on the planet. It is our ability to see the consequences of our actions that allow us to chart a course through the chaos that surrounds us, allows us to limit or reduce risk, risk that can result in disaster or even death.

   Because of Patricia's genetic inability to differ between good and evil, she experienced more difficulty with consequences then others. The vast majority of time, she simply could not see the possible results of her actions. I believe the events of the last four years provide ample evidence of her problem.

   During the fifteen years we lived together, Patricia relied on me to provide knowledge of consequences. She would call the office angry about something, with a plan for revenge, to hear me say why that was not a good idea. On many occasions, where she was not angry, the ideas were excellent but Patricia still could not see the consequences.

   Before our marriage, Patricia received the same guidance from a family that 'adopted' her as a teenager. Before that, her mother provided the guidance. I was the third, but by no means the first to provide this help for Patricia.

   It is difficult to explain this aspect of our marriage to those that did not experience Patricia. People ask how I could remain married to someone this crazy for sixteen years. The simple and accurate answer is that Patricia was not this crazy during our marriage, that my support and the support of those that assumed this burden before me allowed Patricia to function at a level well beyond what her subsequent mental health professionals provided over the last few years.

   Our divorce freed Patricia from worrying about consequences, a negative aspect of life that Patricia associated with me. Again and again she exclaimed her freedom.

   Of course, Patricia was only free of me, not consequences. Her failure to see this resulted in horror after horror over the next four years.

   Consequences still govern Patricia life, my life, and MySpace life. After locking me out for two weeks from my profile on MySpace, I am moving my primary site to this domain FatherIAm.com. You will be able to access my blogs, media records, and other audio records of our experience.

   I will still post on MySpace, but perhaps MySpace fulfilled its purpose and it is time for me to grow again.