And what are we to make of this incident?  I did not make any calls or make any attempt to contact Patricia.  Given this, what the hell is going on? Why would someone tell Patricia I called? I guess there is the billon to one shot that someone named ‘Stephen’ called this place six times, but this is unlikely.

            I am forced to concede the Probation Officer’s small thinking, given his laziness to actually know something about Patricia’s past, to conclude there was a reasonable chance I was calling. How was he to know that she is the last person on the planet I would call for several thousand valid reasons to begin with that it would probably void the three court orders she has against contacting me. How would he know that I have made no attempt to contact her by phone since May of 2002 and went to court in September of 2003 to end all direct contact.

            Now, if they actually gave a damn about their job, Patricia, or the victim they might have asked a couple of simple questions.

According to Patricia’s petition, the report of my telephone conversation came from one individual, “Sandy”.

·         Is Sandy a felon?

·         Does Sandy always answer the phone at this place or only when Patricia’s ex husband allegedly calls? 

·         What is the relationship between Sandy and Patricia (good, bad, or ugly)?

·         What is Sandy’s character like?

Gieri admitted that few or none of these questions had been asked and she promised to investigate. She did not promise to report to me and I do not see any reason why she should be obligated to do so. I know I did not make the calls and the damage has already been done. The only people that could be helped by knowledge of my innocence are Patricia and her therapist.

I am pretty use to being falsely accused of acts of domestic violence and people wondering if I am guilty. I leave judgment to God and my children.

            Given that these simple questions are answered and a reasonable, but small minded, person would conclude that the calls were made, is there anyone with a knowledge of Patricia’s whereabouts and past who would make the calls and represent themselves as me?

            I find it difficult to believe Patricia conspired with someone else to make the calls and represent themselves as ‘Stephen’. Follow me for a few moments.

            When Patricia filed for divorce in February of 2002, I was frightened for my children and frightened for me personally. I feared emotional and physical harm to the children, but my personal fear was different.

• Patricia is a fricking genius. I use to joke about marrying someone smarter them me, and I did. 

• Patricia is immoral, she has no understanding of right and wrong and only acts in her self interest.

• Patricia is charming, most people who met Patricia fall under the spell of her charm for a while. The period is a couple of weeks to several months. I myself was a victim of this charm, although John Romero (the GAL) seemed to be the only person I knew who seemed to read through Patricia’s charm instantly.

• Patricia knows me better then anyone else, although I know she never understood me.

• Patricia got me arrested in 1993 for an act of Domestic Violence. Granted the charges were later dismissed (see my discussion in the first chapter of my book, pages 30-38 ). But the incident illustrated my fear that Patricia could bring false charges against me with some success.

Okay, can we see the basis for my fear? If anyone was capable and inclined to set me up with false charges, it was Patricia. She wanted to prove to the police that I was stalking her? Call the police and ask them to come out. Once the police arrive, have someone call me and tell me that one of the kids are hurt and I need to get to the house immediately. The moment my car appears on the street, Patricia turns to the cops and says “See, there he is!!!”

I worried about ten thousand variations of this but it really never happened. When CYFD asked Patricia to provide a specific example of my abuse after she accused me of threatening her and her second husband. Patricia’s response – “One time Stephen came in and sat down next to me on the couch in the living room. He was mad about something and suddenly turned to me and slammed my head against the cement floor”.

When interrogated by the Sheriff’s department on the night of her arrest, the detective asked Patricia to provide specific examples. She could not bring up any specific example other then my alleged breaking into a home that she was not living in two years previously.

And let us not forget her attempt to blackmail the children into making statements of my abuse against them that blew up in her face and resulted in the children coming to live with me.

The closest she got were the ‘journals’ she used in the first domestic violence hearing that were admitted without any previous disclosure and chance for rebuttal by my attorney or myself. She also posted some of these on her website. Additionally there was the letter she wrote the JPO concerning her allegations of Glen abusing animals. When going through papers we picked up after Patricia’s arrest, we found drafts of such journal entries, edited time and time again.

Simply put, Patricia had the brains, the lack of morality, and the knowledge of me that should have put me away.

But it never happened

When people argue with me that Patricia is not mentally ill but manipulative as the doctor at the jail stated, I shake my head. I know better. Patricia’s mental illness prevented her effectively accusing me of false actions. She tried, but just could not pull it off.

Finally, if this was a set up, why did Patricia not carry it through? Why did she not show up at the hearing knowing full well that her failure to do so would end up with the case being dismissed?  Joe Sanders showed up in technical violation of the restraining order I have against him, but Patricia did not.

This is why I find it difficult to believe Patricia tied to set me up.

Hmm, I did not call and Patricia did not set me up. We are still left with ‘Sandy’ telling Patricia I called.

Gieri, after criticizing me for drawing conclusion without adequate support, drew her own conclusions and decided that I still had feelings for Patricia. This then leads to the conclusion that I did make the calls despite all of my protests and our history.

Coincidently, this conclusion removes any responsibility for Gieri having revictimized the victim by telling Patricia to file the petition. Amazing how Gieri seems to have stumbled on this solution to her problem.

I am going to draw some of my own conclusions without adequate support. It is my guess that Sandy was messing with Patricia by telling her that I was calling. The answers to the questions I posed above would provide some support, but I imagine I will never know.

Patricia told a similar story when she was accused of calling her ex-in laws and us in 2005.  According to Patricia, someone stole her address book and began making calls to the Self’s, my office, and our home. Neither the hearing officer or Judge Murdoch believed her, but it illustrates this kind of juvenile behavior common among felons.

The damage is done, a woman whose mental illness has lead her to believe over the years that I stalked, beat, and harassed her is once again presented with this possibility.  I simply hope she can get pass this and move down a road far, far, far away from us.

As a final note, I will remind people that I write about Patricia to bring about change and because our story has some interest. I am not obsessed with Patricia. I am obsessed with the lawyers who loved only our money, the therapists who brought their own agendas into the family, the judges who want to decide the fate of children in five minutes or less, with the Department of Corrections that ignored the treatment her sentence outlined, in short – I am obsessed with the BEAST MACHINE Patricia mounted and pushed us into the hell of the last five years.